the AFTERMATH!!!!

Its probably really weird of wat i really feel? it feels as if m still livin in the eye of the storm... theres this shriekin silence around me which is slowly rippin me apart!!! is this the silence before the storm or is it the one after it!!! is it natural to feel this? i certainly dont know..i dont know why things happen.. i tell people to enjoy the present but am i really livin life or m i jus breathing?? i kno its pretty ironic!!! i dont even know wat i feel??m i numb to all the pleasures a human being is entitled to or is it jus that empty feelin.. somethings maybe are beyond spiritual level. I am surrounded by so many people yet sometimes m so alone..its as if i was left stranded in the open seas..with no where to go nd nothing to do..i screamed, screamed loudly.. sent SOS but all in vain!!no one came to my rescue!! its exactly as if i was pushed in a quicksand, initially i thought it was a joke nd didnt believe it was a quick sand, even when i started sinkin in, i kept fighting my death.. i kept tryin to come out in desperation but then slowly i gave in. the harder i tried, the deeper it got..slowly i got swallowed in..i cant move my feet, my hands, my jaw..now they feel as if they were never there.. m blinded, more with uncertainity nd distrust than anything else.. m strangled now!! my heart pumps faster than ever..the adrenaline rushin for i know, its the last time as I am finally about to DIE!!!